Sunday, October 31, 2010


Dear Cody..
So I just looked through all of your senior pictures.
And wow.. You're so amazing babe.. I miss you so much..

Seeing those pictures, and your smile.. Just made me miss you more..
I just wish you coulda seen how much I did love you, because I do love you so much. I just wish that I woulda told it to you.. And now that you've left.. I can't say it enough..
Even though what's done is done.. :'( I still wish with every bone in my body that its all a dream..and that I could be in your arms tonight..
Anywayyy.. I miss you hun, and I love you sosososososo much..

Love Always,
Kody :)

Friday, October 29, 2010

Three months

Dear Cody.
Today is our three month anniversary!
And I just wanted to say, I love you, and I miss you more than you'd ever imagine..
You were and ARE The best thing that has ever happened to me..
I just wish you were here so that I could take you out for our anniversary..

Tonight I just want you here in my arms,
And I'd give anything just to have that wish come trueeee...

I love you Cody..And I will always miss you..More than you'll know..
And happy three months hun :)

Love always,
Kody :)

Saturday, October 23, 2010

I miss you..

Dear Cody,

I miss you, I miss your smile.. and I still shed a tear every once in a while.... and my heart won't let you go..

Oh Cody.. How I miss you so much.. I know i say that a lot.. But its true. I miss you more than words can ever say..
And I just wish that I coulda been there for you more often.
Honestly so many things remind me of you.. And I just wish you were here in my arms.. =/.. and I wish I coulda told you that I love you. Because I realyl do. And I apologize for never actually saying it to you. So I love you Cody J Barker.. Forever and always.. Just wish I coulda told it to you..

Love always,

Thursday, October 21, 2010


Dear Cody,
I don't know where to start..
I miss you..So much.. And I just wish that you could be here.
Because you being gone, just plain fucking sucks..
I don't even know where to start with all this.. i Just.. *sigh*

Theres only so much I can say.. And I just don't know what to say besides I miss you more than EVER.. =/.. And that I love you, and always will. <3

I just wish you could be here with me.. In my arms, and everything will be all ohk..

Kody <3

Sunday, October 17, 2010


I don't even know where to start...

All I've been thinking about lately.. Is Cody.. =/.. I miss him more than words can even describe.
He was the best thing that I EVER had..And the best thing I ever will have had..
And ugh..That stupid ass.. I just..I don't even knoww.. I'd give anything to have him back here in my arms..
I still don't believe he's gone.. I'm waiting for his text to tell me to get my ass over there, so we can do something.. =/. I just..
I can't do this..

Friday, October 15, 2010

I Miss You..

Dear Cody,
Oh how it has been just over a month
And how I can't deal with you being gone..
I'm just waiting to wake up from this horrible horrible dream,
And look at my phone and have a text from you telling me to "get my ass over there"
But that isn't gonna happen.. =/.

Oh Cody.. I just wish you would have said something.. We all woulda been there for you, me included..
I know I wasn't the best at that with my parents.. But I woulda been there for you in a heartbeat..
*Sigh* I know i can't do anything anymore, whats done is done.. But oh how I just wish that things were different..
I miss you BEYOND what words can even begin to describe..

I love you, and i miss you..