Monday, December 13, 2010

3 Months

It has been three months today, of how long my Cody's been gonee..
And let me tell you..Its been a tough three months..
So many things remind me of him.. I just can't stand it.. I miss him terribly.
And iat times i still don't believe it, and i want im back homeee..

I still can't believe that it has been three months.. This time has just flown.. =/.
But i'd give anything to have my Cody back. =/.

I love you, and miss you terribly Cody.
Love Kody :)

Friday, November 12, 2010


Dear Cody,
Its almost been a full two months since you've been gone..
And WOW.. I can't believe you've been gone that fucking long.. I miss you so much, you have no ideaa. I just.. Wow. Sitting here looking back..If someone woulda said two months from now, You'd be long gone, I'd stand up and punch them out, Cause they're all wrong.... Who knew..?
I know what's done is done.. But i want you back here.. =/.
I'm still waiting for this all to be a horrible dream to wake up outta..

But even with you gone.. I'm doing so much.. I do what i want now.. and i dont care what my mom thinks.. and i'm ordering my FCKH8 shirts.. "Some Dudes Marry Dudes..get Over it!"
And im gonna wear it with PRIDE! :D

I do love you Cody.. And i regret every minute that I wasn't able to tell you that I did..
Love you always,
Kody :)

Monday, November 08, 2010


Dear Cody.

First off, I miss you like crazy.. There isn't a DAY that goes by when I don't think about you..

And on Sunday I was on my way to work..And I was at the stop light just sitting there.and all of a sudden, i look in my mirror, and see your cute little license plate cover coming, and then i realized it was your car!
I litterly jumped for joy! And said, "Yay, I can see my Cody. He's back!"
And then I realized it was your mom driving.. (Not like thats bad!)
I just expected you to be there..
I love you darlin,
And i miss you terribly..

Love always,
Kody :)

Tuesday, November 02, 2010


Dear Cody,
So today has for some reason, been REALLY long..
I woke up.. And for some reason, Cody was just instilled into my mind.. And he wouldn't leave me all day.. =/.
It just made me realize how much I truly do miss him. And how much I love him.
I just wish that I had one more chance to prove that to him.. Because.. I.. Idk.. I miss him terribly..
It kills me to think that he's gone..
But I just feel that he is going to text me to hang out again.. And that he isn't gone...

Now I'm just rambling.. and missing him terribly.. =/.

I love you Cody,
Forever and always....


Sunday, October 31, 2010


Dear Cody..
So I just looked through all of your senior pictures.
And wow.. You're so amazing babe.. I miss you so much..

Seeing those pictures, and your smile.. Just made me miss you more..
I just wish you coulda seen how much I did love you, because I do love you so much. I just wish that I woulda told it to you.. And now that you've left.. I can't say it enough..
Even though what's done is done.. :'( I still wish with every bone in my body that its all a dream..and that I could be in your arms tonight..
Anywayyy.. I miss you hun, and I love you sosososososo much..

Love Always,
Kody :)

Friday, October 29, 2010

Three months

Dear Cody.
Today is our three month anniversary!
And I just wanted to say, I love you, and I miss you more than you'd ever imagine..
You were and ARE The best thing that has ever happened to me..
I just wish you were here so that I could take you out for our anniversary..

Tonight I just want you here in my arms,
And I'd give anything just to have that wish come trueeee...

I love you Cody..And I will always miss you..More than you'll know..
And happy three months hun :)

Love always,
Kody :)

Saturday, October 23, 2010

I miss you..

Dear Cody,

I miss you, I miss your smile.. and I still shed a tear every once in a while.... and my heart won't let you go..

Oh Cody.. How I miss you so much.. I know i say that a lot.. But its true. I miss you more than words can ever say..
And I just wish that I coulda been there for you more often.
Honestly so many things remind me of you.. And I just wish you were here in my arms.. =/.. and I wish I coulda told you that I love you. Because I realyl do. And I apologize for never actually saying it to you. So I love you Cody J Barker.. Forever and always.. Just wish I coulda told it to you..

Love always,