Almost..

Dear Cody,
Its almost been a full two months since you've been gone..
And WOW.. I can't believe you've been gone that fucking long.. I miss you so much, you have no ideaa. I just.. Wow. Sitting here looking back..If someone woulda said two months from now, You'd be long gone, I'd stand up and punch them out, Cause they're all wrong.... Who knew..?
I know what's done is done.. But i want you back here.. =/.
I'm still waiting for this all to be a horrible dream to wake up outta..

But even with you gone.. I'm doing so much.. I do what i want now.. and i dont care what my mom thinks.. and i'm ordering my FCKH8 shirts.. "Some Dudes Marry Dudes..get Over it!"
And im gonna wear it with PRIDE! :D

I do love you Cody.. And i regret every minute that I wasn't able to tell you that I did..
Love you always,
Kody :)

Ahh

Dear Cody.

First off, I miss you like crazy.. There isn't a DAY that goes by when I don't think about you..

And on Sunday I was on my way to work..And I was at the stop light just sitting there.and all of a sudden, i look in my mirror, and see your cute little license plate cover coming, and then i realized it was your car!
I litterly jumped for joy! And said, "Yay, I can see my Cody. He's back!"
And then I realized it was your mom driving.. (Not like thats bad!)
I just expected you to be there..
I love you darlin,
And i miss you terribly..

Love always,
Kody :)

Hmmm..

Dear Cody,
Wowww..
So today has for some reason, been REALLY long..
I woke up.. And for some reason, Cody was just instilled into my mind.. And he wouldn't leave me all day.. =/.
It just made me realize how much I truly do miss him. And how much I love him.
I just wish that I had one more chance to prove that to him.. Because.. I.. Idk.. I miss him terribly..
It kills me to think that he's gone..
But I just feel that he is going to text me to hang out again.. And that he isn't gone...

*sigh*..
Now I'm just rambling.. and missing him terribly.. =/.

I love you Cody,
Forever and always....

Kody..